I've been thinking about what she said for the last few weeks and I wonder if my little four year old has more of this life thing figured out than I do. I don't go to bed every night thinking that I just had the best day of my life. Don't get me wrong, I have good days. A lot of them as a matter of fact. But would I consider any of them the BEST DAY of my life. My knee jerk reaction is, not really. When I think of the best days of my life immediately my mind goes to the day I got engaged, my wedding day, the birth day of each of my children, the day Marcus and I renewed our wedding vows, the first time I realized I was pregnant, a handful of birthdays. Are momentous days the only BEST days? Certainly not. Am I finishing each day with "this is the best day ever" kind of attitude? Certainly not.
Being a stay-at-home mom can be a little bit like Groundhog Day. My days are very much in a routine. Not a strict schedule, but definitely a routine. Sometimes we shake it up and deviate from the usual, but most days we don't. If I'm being honest my main objective each day is to make sure my kids are loved, nurtured, fed, exercised, bathed and rested. On top of that I also try to complete one cycle of laundry from start to finish, make sure the dishes have been loaded and unloaded, keep the kitchen tidy-ish. If I'm feeling really optimistic I'll tackle one of the hundreds of projects on my to-do list. Some days I've just got it together, many days it seems I don't.
|It's not down on any map, true place never are.|
Billy Graham once said that the greatest surprise he had discovered about his life was the brevity of it, especially once he reached his later years. At this particular season of my life, time seems to be moving slowly. Some days seem longer than others and that can be really hard at times. Not because I don't love my life, because assuredly I do. But when you're a mom to three young children and a wife to a husband who works very long hours, days can get a bit weary. I get tired, my patience runs thin. Thank goodness I serve a God that loves me unconditionally and shows me His grace each day. If it were left up to me to fill up my soul with love, compassion and forgiveness each day, I would always fail.